I Love You

He wrapped his arms around my waist and nuzzled his nose close to my neck. I giggled, feeling all ticklish about it. His raspy laugh filled my ears, as if on cue, the butterflies erupted in my stomach. It felt like spring and summer combined. 

He held me close, my back facing his chest. He whispered something funny which caused me to laugh. "I love your laugh, it's one of the things I love about you." He whispered again, this time I could feel a smile on his face. Then. he turned me around so I could face him. He touched my cheeks softly, then pinching it feeling how chubby they were. I stopped and went to the kitchen.

He followed me and grabbed one my hands to spin me around, as if we're dancing. He opened the refrigerator which let its light emit the room. I laughed at his reference to one of Taylor Swift's song, All Too Well. 

He released my hand, but before he could do anything else, I ran to our little balcony. It had the view of the city. It was a wonderful view, especially considering it was night time. Even though there were lots of city lights around, I could see some stars shining on the night blue sky. 

I was surprised when someone lifted me and spun me around. When it finally stopped, I looked at this person, it was him obviously. He had a goofy smile on his face which earned a laugh from me. He hugged me closer then whispered, "I love you." 

He kissed my lips softly, capturing the moment even more. When the kiss ended, I whispered, "I love you more. Thank you for being my best friend and the one I love." 

He nodded and hugged me closer. At that moment, I felt complete. He was my flaws and I was his. I couldn't ask for anyone better.

For anyone to say those 3 special words,

I love you.

A Few Words To End The Night

In life, you have to know who are your allies and foes. You can't just act obvlious around your foes and let them fool you, bring you down. Everybody has their regrets, wanting to go back and change their past. Obviously, they can't. Unless you have a time machine.

Even if you knew who your allies and foes are, you might be wrong. You can never know who you can trust, until you've known them for years. If you throw your trust away amd expect them to trust you back, then you must be gambling. Or you might just be drunk.

The next thing you know, you're lost in this big world. First of all, you don't know whom to trust. Second of all, you're alone by yourself. And last, you've lost hope of living. You start to think, "why should I live my life anyway, I don't have anybody to relate to".

These past few days, I've been considering the exact same thought. If you don't know me, then hear me out, let me explain it for you: 

"How does it feel to be given looks by someone you haven't done anything wrong to?" 

"How does it feel to have no support from the ones you love?"

"How does it feel when you're trying to improve but someone else beat you to it?" 

"How does it feel when you have thousands of negative thoughts in your head?" 

And most important question is,

"How does it feel when you slid a sharp razor on your skin?" 

If you can answer those questions and have the same answers as I do, then congrats, you're not the only going through the same shitte problem alone.