Revenge

Even though it's been quite a long time after you ended a bond with someone, somehow you still have that special place in your heart for them. You still care for them, but you don't want to. All those unwanted feelings are there for a reason. It doesn't matter how hard you try to forget all those memories, it'll still be there in your mind flashing by in a certain time.

If you get judged by this, then they're have no rights to do so. They don't know how painful it is to move on from someone that you still care about. They try to ruin you master plan on finding someone else, or even they try to make that awkward tension. 

Those people don't have any feelings. If they said that they've been there, done that, then why aren't they supporting you? It doesn't make sense really, if they're someone close to you, a friend, why on earth would they be against you instead! 

Society these days.

Those people who quoted, I'll keep my head held high when someone tries to bring me down, 

actually is doing the opposite of it. I mean just think about it. They're holding their head up high because someone is trying to bring them down, and yet they bring someone else down.

Revenge sometimes isn't the best way to deal with the pain. Talking it with them is better, trust me. Settle it down, have a talk about it. Don't just bash them because you want them to feel the pain you're feeling. Make them feel it through words, not actions. Your own words, not others. Your confession about the whole situation.

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Songs

I'm sorry if I say I need you

But I don't care

I'm not scared of love

Cause when I'm not with you I'm weaker

Is that so wrong?

Cause I need you to keep me from falling apart

Cause you make me strong

~Strong (One Direction)~

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I'm under pressure

Cause I can't have you 

The way that I want

Let's just go back to the way it was

When we were on 

Honeymoon Avenue

What happened to the butterflies

Guess they encountered that stop sign

And my heart is at a yellow light

And right when I think that we found it

That's when we start turning around

They say only fools fall in love

They must have been talking about us

Sometimes I feel like we've ever been here before

We're going to be lost 

If we continue to fight

Let's just go back to the way it was

~Honeymoon Avenue (Ariana Grande)~

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You are the song in me that I can't ignore

You are the simple things that I adore

You are the story line

The hidden theme

Its you who have stolen my heart

And my weaknesses, you're strongest part

I could write a million song to say how I feel

Cause I felt it from you

I'll tell the whole world

To tell that you are everything that I've ever dreamed

You're my how's and when's

You're my perfect alibi 

And I hope you feel it too

When I say that I need you

~You're Mine (Maybe Next Summer)~

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You & I

We don't wanna be like them

We can make it till the end

Nothing can come between

You & I

I figure it out

So the mistakes of up and down

There's always room for common ground

Cause they see it in different light

~ You & I (One Direction)~

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And I know its long gone

And that magic's not here no more

And I might be ok

But I'm not fine at all

Photo album on the counter

Your cheeks were turning red

You used to be little kids with glasses in a twin sized bed

And your mother's telling stories about you in a tee ball team

You tell me about your past thinking your future was me

We got lost in translation

Maybe I asked for too much

But maybe this thing was a masterpiece

Till you tore it all up

Running scared I was there

I remember it all too well

You call me up again just to break me like a promise

So casually cruel in the name of being honest

Cause I remember it all too well

Time wont flies its like I'm paralyzed by it

I'd like to be myself again 

But I'm still trying to find

Now you mail back my things

And I walk home alone

But you keep my old scarf

From that very first week

Cause it reminds you of innocence 

Because you remember it all too well

It was rare 

I was there

I remember it

All too well

~ All Too Well (Taylor Swift)~

Her Life

All she wanted was the comfort of her loved one, but unfortunately he left her dumb-founded. She didn't know why, but she all she could do is to accept it even though it broke her heart into tiny pieces. She tried to find out the reason, as curiosity got to her, and when she did, it broke her heart even more. If that's even possible. 

Now, she admits that she has moved on, but deep somewhere inside her hear, she hasn't. She still loves him with all her heart. However, she doesn't want to reveal it, because she wants to move forward even though her heart disagree with her decision. She doesn't know what to do or even feel, when there are rumors that he likes another girl. She wants to feel normal and yet, she doesn't want to feel jealous of the lucky girl. 

Especially when the lucky girl is her best friend. 

She can't control her hormones either and to her that's a sign which means that she isn't ready yet for another relationship.Despite it all, she's still a teenager with unstable hormones and she can like any guy in a minute. She doesn't want to look like a slut in front of everybody, but she just can't help it when a guy compliments her and she feels so happy. As if she has a crush on him.

Her life still hasn't reach its peak and yet she has trouble finding her true passion behind God's gift on giving her another day to breathe and have another day to spend. She's waiting dearly for that true reason, she wonders, how long it will take her. 

Will she ever find it and grow up?

or

Will she stick to her childish mind?

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