Life

Life is truly hard, full of mountains to climb and to reach to the top, we'll have obstacles. Everybody knows that, but no one will know when the obstacles will come and when we'll reach the top.

Life is not simple, it's complex. It's full of happiness mix with sadness or pain and mix with curiosity and other things you can imagine of. Happiness is really hard to find in this cruel world, in my opinion. Some says that happiness is totally the opposite, it's really easy to find and feel. But in my life, it's truly hard.

Sometimes I'll get the fake happiness which is fake laughs that I had with fake people. Fake smiles that I share with fake people too. Almost everything about my life happiness are fake. I don't even know they're fake, but I just deal it with, accept it.

Today is a harsh day. Apparently, my mom dislikes so much that she is brave enough to take away happiness, half of it. My happiness over here is my gadgets. They're my whole life and if someone dares to sell them, I'll probably cry for weeks and just lose my mind. And I mean it.

Some people don't understand why I'm all about gadgets. They do make me look like I'm a lazy person, but deep inside, what I do with my gadgets make me happy. I write stories with gadgets, I socialize by my gadgets, and I listen to music which is my way to just forget about all those mountains that I'm about face in my life.

However, my mom seems to disagree with it. Right now, I'm missing one of my 4 gadgets. This gadget allows me to do skype which basically let me socialize with my fellow friends. I'm not sure if they're fake or not, but I guess time will tell.

I'm really worried that I'll say goodbye to this special gadget because it allows me to access line, Skype, Instagram, games that I buy with my own money and other applications. If you still don't understand my feelings and think that I'm such a ridiculous person then, you have all the rights about it.

It's like when you're so in love or attach to a thing or things and just all of a sudden that thing/things is/are gone, how do you feel? Or maybe when you truly love someone and that someone is taken away from you, how do you feel?

If you feel what I feel then you understand and probably you won't think that I'm ridiculous, and I thank you for that.

So you see, happiness is one of the mountains in our life. Happiness is the top/peak of the mountain that we need to climb. Right now, I'm dealing with one of the hardest obstacle in my life. A broken heart is not what I'm worried about, but having happiness gone is on the top of my list.

And I just have to deal with it. If God says that my gadgets need to be taken away from me, then so be it. But if I can still just delay it for a couple of months or weeks then, I'll be grateful for those wonderful days.

I can never understand about my weirdness of crying over gadgets, but if it's who I am, then it will be the thing that describe me.

~Dara