Depression

Who knew that depression can get to me?
I never knew that all of this can happen to be honest.

Sometimes I'll look at myself in the mirror. How far I've changed and how different I am mentally. I never wanted this to happen, but I guess the teenage hormones get to me, now look at me.

I get pissed whenever I can't do anything right, like I have to be perfect. Why? Because I feel so worthless right now, that if I make a single mistake I'll just tear up the whole word, the entire universe even.

Basically, in my head, all I can think about are negative thoughts, they're starting to eat me up. They're making me insane every minute, every second.

I can't stop listening to sad songs or even motivation songs, just trying to get my groove you know. I'm trying to get back on my feet, staying away from sharp objects that I can use to cut my skin over.

I can't say that I'm addicted to cutting or anything, but it just feels right. I know that you can't understand because you might not get through what I'm going through at the moment.

This is because of a broken heart but now it's something more. I don't care about the guy anymore, I just care about his reason on breaking up on me. I'm really pathetic.