The fatigue I'm feeling is, incredibly frustrating. I'm both tired and frustrated in doing something I want to do, and yet I hate it. Partly, because I started to realize that this 'something' maybe isn't really worth all the time that I'm wasting to actually gain something out of it.
Because right now, it feels like I'm gambling with time. Like, what if I ran out of it, and in the end what's become of it is just a big mess? Even if I am playing all the right moves, something might just happen and ruin it all.
It's very tiresome, when you feel like all your efforts are in vain; you get nothing out of it each time.
Sometimes, I'd like to just stop what I'm doing and move on to the next big project, that might actually benefit me. Since, all this effort I'm putting into it is for nothing, why not just leave it behind when I have more time for it?
Well maybe, deep down, I know that it might actually be worth it in the end, but I have to wait for that sweet outcome. Of course, everyone's not a big fan of waiting, especially when they're tired of trying.
The fatigue is truly unbearable, but if he's worth it, then why not?
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